Friday will be my last day with Maple Reinders. I was the most recent to arrive, so I am the first to go. Kinda sad really, that work ethic, attendance, quality of work, speed, and pleasent attitude aren't even considerations in the decision to lay a person off. It's all about seniority.
It isn't like they're even out of work, there is still lots of work, it's just couple weeks away. I was told that when they get parts in, they'll call me back. Hopefully, I'll be up north in a camp by then, but it's a plan B at least.
I'm getting so tired of spinning my wheels. I work fucking hard, I'm fast, I produce equal or better work than my peers, I have a good attitude, I take instruction well, and other people come to me to ask how to do things. I just can't seem to get my foot in the door anywhere long enough to slip the rest of me inside.
I'm to focused on improving my life to let this hit me too hard. I have to keep pressing forward, and just hope that there is a good reason for these hard times. It's like being eleven rounds into a boxing match. Winners are forged from pain, suffering, endurance, and heart. I have the strength to keep going, I just thought that by this time in my life, i'd be there. My goals just keep getting pushed back, staying just out of my reach. It's incredably frustrating, borderline infuriating, carrot on a stick, bullshit.
Give me the fucking carrot!
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