Balance.

I want to talk about balance. I think most people can relate to the struggle of trying to reach some kind of a balance in your life, a sweet spot if you will. How much can I give, to be valued, but not taken advantage of? How much time/effort can I allocate to the various areas of my life, so I don't feel overwelmed, but still productive? How many bad habits can I have before it becomes self-destructive? How much focus can I give certain questions or intrests before it becomes obsessive? How much money do I need to make to live a comfortable lifestyle?

The vast majority of the stress in my life comes as a direct result of some imbalance, or feeling of imbalance. I think most people are in the same boat. What I'm finding right now is not that i'm necessarily way out of balance, but that with all the changes in my life there is just so many new "balances" to try and figure out. Superficial balances like, does the annoyance of having facial hair justify the "personal flare" that it offers my image? Time balances like, how much time do I need for myself to feel like I'm making personal progress/satisfaction verses how much time I need to be giving to my children? Diet balances, am I eating enough protein for the amount I'm working out? Why do I keep loosing weight when I'm exerting to much effort to gain it. (lean weight) Giving balances like, Am I spending enough time/effort, looking for work? Am I giving to much/too little in my childcare arrangement with my ex?  Am I going out, driving into town, spending money more liberally than I should considering my finacial state? If I cut down my social life, how will it effect my happiness? Is thinking this much about what I should be doing, taking away from enjoying my life and focusing on the moment? If I don't think about/strive for balance in my life at all, how long before everything just falls to shit?

This is what I think about. They are frustrating questions because, the only true answers come completely from me, and the only way to find them is through trial and error. So I'm left feeling overwelmed by all the "trials" and "errors" in my life right now, in the search for these "balance" answers.

I'm confident they'll all find their resting places sooner or later, but with all these pendulums swinging around in my head, it's making me dizzy, and I'm having difficulty focussing on them one at a time, which makes the task seem all the more daunting.