The First Step.

It arrived! The first day of spring, the day i've been waiting for. (oddly enough, also very close to the first day of spring in the "real" world.) I got a job! It's not eveything I had wished for, but it came through when I needed it, and that's what matters. I'll be working in Penticton, which also strangely enough gives me that extra kick in the pants that I need to get outta this house, my parents basement is about 30mins. closer to Penticton than here, so that pretty much puts the nail in the coffin.

It's the right thing to do. She's just in a completely other place than I am right now. The air can get thick around here. It's time that I leave. It's much more important to my children that their parents have a good relationship with each other, than it is for their father live with them full time for another couple days, weeks, months, who knows?

It's going to be really hard to tell Bekah.

I'm pretty messed up about it. It's a fight between wanting to do what's right, and wanting to be selfish, and hang onto them a little longer. I know what to do, it just sucks...

I'll see them on the weekends though, and if I get to lonely I can come into town during the week, and get here in time to put them to bed at least.

I'm a boomberang child... Mamma, i'm coming home...